Oh my fucking god, what a weekend that was, the kind dreams are made of hehe. Ain’t had such a nuts one, since I don’t know, my pre responsibility uni days maybe. Was fucking epic! I now have psykit, and Eze staying hear, which should make the rest of the week, equally nuts, I have a lot of work to get done mind, so I leave you now.
Regards Captain Plop plop.
Erm, life has taken a turn for the hyper odd, pretty spun out at the moment, seem to have lost myself, what I want, where I’m going, what my objectives are. But I don’t feel hopeless, I feel ok. I failed my driving test yesterday, and erm, that was nuts, a real piss take, I would explain the facts of what happened, but it makes no difference, what’s happened has happened, prejudice or not. I also went out, with people I’ve not bumped into in a long while, people I’ve not really bothered with in a long time. Was a good night, then I just so happened to bump into Steph, and spun out, but it was weird, because there with these friends, that I’ve neglected for some time, I had support, and help, and ended up having the best night I’ve had in a long time. And Steph’s not in my minds eye, not in the slightest, the inferiority complex with me thinking that was better than I can even begin to hope to get, has gone. She dragged me through months of head fucking breakup, and you know what, haha, her loss.
I am sitting here, very hungover, spent too much last night, but it was a bit of one of them nights, that will be talked about for a long time. I have only two things really playing on my mind, Open University, and the thought that I might have shit on a friend. I’ve tried to confront said individual, but they seem indifferent, I don’t know if that’s indifference because their not bothered, or because the hurt is deep and they don’t want to let up. You know me blogg, I do like to get paranoid, and neurotic, especially hear where I spew my thoughts, but I don’t want to burn any more bridges with the good people.
Starting to sound gushy, and poncy. “You’re not really gay, your just a little bit poncy”
Well thats quite the homophobic attitude I’ve come to expect on the interweb, Good Day!
Yer so I haven’t blogged in a week, got my hair finished today. Check this, ant and gaz just left. I’ve not been smoking for a week, and have a huge no smoking plan that should hopefully work, last week was nuts, for sorting shit out, went to Bristol this weekend, pulled, pics also up.
So yer, oh don’t know if I said I got my new laptop neither, that’s in the picture. Have so much shit to sort out, sorted out so much shit last week, feeling weird, but also feeling cool. Angsty as fuck from non smoking, the dreams are back, but it’s all good. Been thinking seriously lately well today especially about joining the territorial army, and I think that unless something dramatic happens to me, then it’s something I’m definitely going to do this year.
I have to go sleep now. Nos Da
What a pish day, did a bit of this a bit of that, no smoking is going hard. First day back to work and head’s beginning to go, must start studying, getting frustrated with myself, think anxieties are not being helped by fact I’m trying to give up smoking. Now for a nice night of tripping hard while nicotine patched up. Meant to get my hair finished off, w0f and ant came down and I played games the entire fucking time, what a fucking spaz I am, sure the games cool, but I wanted to get things sorted out.
Grrr, and then because of said incident, I tried to justify having one cig, I didn’t but it’s there tinkering in the back of my fucking mind. FUCKED OFF!
By the way, the nice little picture at the sight, is going to be the symbol to my DivX i make when i get me my video camera, thanks to a nice belgiun chap 
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Yer went to bath, and stuff, see my Auntie and Uncle, with me folks, ‘n’ Sister. Was fun, but now i’m fucked off, and waiting to get my new laptop so i can finally be fucking mobile again, can’t wait.
W00 picture blogg, first time in a while too, well what happened yesterday. Not much, organised my PC mainly phat-Ant popped down, went to town, got some hair die. Then bummed around with phat-Ant, waiting for Gaz to come round to land of the living (he didn’t was so fucked from sleep deprivation), picked up Tim, watched some box, talked some it was nice.
I didn’t end up getting to bed till stupid a fucking clock, and only got up at gone 2, heating has packed up, my DVD Player is sketchy, and I have a million and one things to do. My new PC is lush though, and the hammering it’s taking and bouncing back is lovely. Got insurance money for my laptop, fucking rubbish £1,400 so I need to find £300 for the toshiba I like. Right have to go shit shave shower, tidy house, put things away, and wait for Gaz and phat-Ant to arrive.
Well, a new year has come. Oh my fucking god, what a year we’ve been through blogg. This time last year, I’d never have seen myself here in tact, but here I am, and not only that I managed to get my heartbroke again a few times by someone new in the mean time. I may have got on, and moved on this last year, changed things around, but I have become increasingly aware that I’ve started to get complacent. It’s time this year to hone things, to motivate, get things done, and feel all the better for doing. As for women, well fuck knows, I’m not sure I have the relationship addiction any more, so w00 that could make this coming year interesting.
It’s Jan 2nd I am still recovering from new years, Rick (M0rf) came down, was blinding, but you know all good things, and all that. Am just installing everything proper on the beast, ready for Monday morning, plenty of tidying in the house needs to be done, and might hopefully get round to starting on OU now. Oh yer, and forgot to mention, insurance on me lappy seems to be coming through, not sure how much though.
Happy New Year Blogg
Love Plop